Wrap-Up: Things We Don't Say - Craft Beer For Mental Health

This particular beer here means a whole lot to a whole lot of people in & around the craft industry, not just us Hopsmashholes. While the project was dreamt up by myself (Joel) and Nicole Henzel of Malteurop, the recipe was all Jake, Jack, and Max at Eagle Park in Wisconsin, and I quickly drafted my forever pals over at Egoproof, who did the label design for every can, pro fucking bono. At last count, we had something like 200 breweries around the world sign on to brew a beer, talk about mental health, and possibly throw some funds at a mental health nonprofit.

While the conversations that came from ‘actively talking about our mental health with friends over a beer’ were life-affirming, I won’t lie and say this project had a happy ending. Sometime around April/May (OK IT WAS APRIL 23RD, 2021), I had the privilege of receiving a text alerting me to public accusations pointed at someone outside of the project, but who was directly involved with the nonprofit I was working for as an independent contractor.

If anyone ever says some shit like, “It won’t hurt you if you didn’t do anything wrong,” believe me when I tell you they’re fucking lying. In the weeks and months that followed, I experienced some of the most extreme stress I have ever encountered, and some fun new health problems I am still working to fix (i.e. resting heart rate over 115 bpm for over 3 months, nauseous anxiety 24/7, inability to sleep longer than 15 minutes at a time). I learned a lot about who I am as a person in those months, feeling like no matter what I did I couldn’t escape the physical ramifications of being associated with gross shit.

I didn’t know what a boundary between the personal and professional was, and I ultimately learned that just because you want someone to do the right thing, it doesn’t mean they will. I lost a whole shitload of respect for people, an organization, and began the process of putting myself and my family first, no matter how difficult. No more FOMO, no more paying dues.

Things We Don’t Say includes things we don’t WANT to say because they’re fucking true and it hurts to know that intentions don’t mean fucking shit when you almost die because of someone else’s fucking bullshit.

Thanks to literally everyone and every brewery who participated in this. ❤️

Wrap-Up: Things We Don't Say - Craft Beer For Mental Health

Wrap-Up: Things We Don't Say - Craft Beer For Mental Health

Wrap-Up: Things We Don't Say - Craft Beer For Mental Health

 

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